Who, Do, What?!

Day 2 of 2012 I decided to spend with the Lord so I went to our frequent hangout spot, the river. But en route, God had me stop and pick up a loaf of bread and some grape juice as I felt like He wanted us to have communion. When I got to the river, I had communion with the Lord and just soaked in His presence. If we stop long enough in His presence, He will speak. And the beginning part of what He began to speak to me was this:

It's not about your "do", it's about your "who". Your "do" flows out of your "who". Let me continue to transform your "who" and your "do" will follow. 

While the above is not funny by any stretch, I find myself continually talking about God's sense of humor! In the days since January 2, literally EVERY DAY, the Lord has been reminding me of this who vs. do conundrum!! In the days following He has given me phrases such as "being vs. doing" and "person hood vs. performance" and then literally devotion after devotion have reiterated God's point. Some of those devos have included the following:

CEASE STRIVING and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.~Psalm 46:10 NASB

So much about God can never be known on the run. We can get so wrapped up in everyday life that we fail to be wrapped up in Him. The busier we are, the more stillness and rest we need....The Father taught me an important truth. He is more concerned with who I am than what I do.~Mary Southerland, GIG

So, needless to say, I think God is trying to get his point across in my life and in the lives of others! :)

The reality is that I am still learning this truth. In the Fall, the Lord took away my striving and performance tendencies when it came to grad school. But now, I am learning the lesson at work. When it came to school, I was able to say, "This is not eternal, it doesn't matter. People are eternal." But the difference with work is that for me and my job, IT IS ETERNAL! I deal daily with individuals who cannot physically function on their own, most of whom have a mental disability and who don't know Jesus. So I am constantly seeking the Lord as to what "cease striving" looks like in the job that He has given me. And I am thinking that maybe "who vs. do" goes back to where God had me at the start of the New Year, at the river (the place of sustenance and refreshing) taking communion (abiding in His arms and His presence).

Lord, in a world where "do" often trumps "who", I ask that you would continue to allow my heart and mind to make the shift that my "who" is really what matters. God, I ask that you would help me to be still and know that you really are God. I pray that you would continue to lead me and guide me into ALL truth!